I apologize that my posts have been sporadic. There has been a lot going on in my world and my focus has been elsewhere.
I believe that this blog is going to be taking a new direction. I will still be discussing my weight loss goals and will update with weight loss information periodically but I feel that God intended this blog to be used for so much more than just tracking weight loss results.
I believe that I hold on to my weight for more reasons than I can count. I think that I "hide" behind my weight. As if it is an outer shell that will hide me from all of the evil in the world. As if with 100 extra pounds of weight no one can see the "real" me. I also think that I don't count myself worthy enough to spend the effort that it would take to stay healthy. I have always found comfort in food. When I am stressed or worried- I want greasy food. There is nothing better than a cheeseburger and fries to make the world okay. I think that there are things in my past that have caused me to adopt these habits and beliefs. I also believe that my loving God wants to heal me from my past and replace my habits and beliefs with His truths.
I think that He wants me to use this blog to help other people learn through my struggle. I think that He wants me to use this blog to help others realize that they are NOT alone. They are not alone dealing with their weight issues, issues that stem from past abuse, issues that deal with "unworthy" feelings. They are not alone because there are millions around the world who feel just like them. They are not alone because God is right there with them, feeling their pain and holding them safely in His arms. We don't always feel it but He's there.
I pray that everyone is okay with this change of direction and that they will share their wisdom and insight along the way. May God Bless you all!!!!
