As part of the healing process for my spine, I am supposed to walk as much as I can tolerate. As part of the healing process for the emotional upheaval that 2020 has brought me, I walk as much as I can tolerate. We have been blessed with some beautiful weather in Kansas City, considering that it's November. In light of that, I have been taking every opportunity to walk outside.
When I walk, I put in my headphones and turn on some sort of worship music in my ear. I saw a post on Instagram the other day that said, "I like my Jesus music at a volume where I can't hear the enemy." It was funny because it's true. While the loud music drowns out the enemy, God can still whisper straight to my heart. Funny how that works.
On one recent day, I was walking and talking to God about all the uncertainty in my life. Nothing that 2020 has brought me makes any sense. I keep saying to Him, "God, I don't know what you are doing, but I trust You." I do trust Him. For the first time in my life, I truly trust that whatever He is doing, is for my good, and His glory. As I was walking, and asking for answers, I saw this path ahead of me.
God gently whispered, "You can't see around the corner from here, but I can. You just have to trust that what's around the corner is exactly what you need for now." It reminded me of all of the analogies I've heard over the years about how God sees the whole movie or the whole parade. It was a great reminder that God knows what's next. It isn't a surprise to Him. I was feeling God's peace until I got around that corner and saw this...
Then I was like, "You're funny God. This is how my life always goes. I feel like you tell me to just be patient, that answers will come when I get around the next corner, but it seems like every time I come around the corner.....there is just another corner that I can't see around." God ever so gingerly whispered into my spirit, "It's because I am teaching you to trust me through every twist and turn. No matter what comes, I know what lies ahead."
I kept praying and walking and praising and walking. I am so thankful for all that God has brought me through. I am so grateful that He has been so close to me this year. He is changing my mindset and changing my prayers...and changing me in the process. As I rounded the last corner of the trail, I saw this sight...and I laughed.
I didn't even wait for God to whisper to me. I just looked up at the sky, laughed, and said, "I know God...when the path You have me on doesn't even look like a clear path exists....trust You in those times too."
I can't close out a blog post without a song...okay...I could...but why would I want to. This song has been on a regular rotation for close to 10 years. So you'll see, the recent lesson on the trail wasn't a new one for me. I just need a reminder. From this One Place by Sara Groves
