Show Me Your Will

I posted the following status on Facebook back in December. 

 -Is it possible that while we are busy begging God, "Show me Your will" that He is shouting back at us, "Show me yours?"-  

Some people immediately said things like "love it!', "truth",  or "can I share." A couple of people didn't understand what it meant.  Some people private messaged me asking for clarification and one person suggested a write a blog post about it.  So here is that blog post.

I spent a lot of time in prayer in 2016.  Specifically, I consistently prayed for God to show me His will for my life.  What did He want from me?  What did His plans look like?  What would He have me do next?  I kept praying and praying and I couldn't hear Him. I kept asking God to drop a job in my lap.  I kept asking Him to heal my body that was so badly broken.  I kept pleading with Him to break through the darkness that was taking over my mind.   He would show me things that He had in store for me, and I would dismiss them in my mind as impossibilities.  I found myself wrestling with God.  He would show me things and I would say back to Him, "I can't" or "I won't".  

Somewhere along the way, I read (or heard) this, "Do we only want a breakthrough if it looks like a shortcut" and that hit me square in the face.  I didn't want to walk through the hard stuff any more.  I wanted God to just make things good.  I just wanted Him to snap His fingers and wave His magic wand and make everything right in my world again. I didn't want a breakthrough if it meant that I had to continue to walk a hard road until God was able to shape and mold me into who He wanted me to be.  

I think God has been showing me His will for my life for quite some time.  He has put visions and desires in my heart that I have been too afraid to walk out because they felt too hard and I felt unqualified.  I had become apathetic to the calling that He was sharing with me.  He has been faithful to send person after person into my life to encourage me to do the things that He is asking me to do.  Most of these people don't even know the calling that I've been avoiding.  They see His goodness in me...and they see the gifts that He has blessed me with and they have been brave enough to call it out in me.  

So along came the quote that I posted on Facebook.  Is it possible that while we are busy begging God, "Show me Your will" that He is shouting back at us, "Show me yours?"  God had been showing me His will for my life over and over again and now He was asking me to show Him my willingness to carry it out.  The word 'will' has many definitions.  It can mean a wish or desire and it can also mean the power to choose our own actions.  Sometimes, it is really easy for me to check out of life or give up on the dreams I have and I hear God saying to me..."show me your will Holly."  He's shown me what His desire is for my life but will I show Him my desire to walk out what He is asking.  

God gives us free will. Which means that we have the power to choose our own actions. We can choose the path we walk.   We can choose to do the things He is asking of us, even when they are hard, or we can choose not to.  The choice is ours.  May we consistently choose for our will to line up with His. May we have the strength and courage to trust that His will is best. When He asks us to submit to His best for our lives, may we always answer with, "I will".